here i am rotting in my room while the rest of my kakis went club. =)

well, its been a long day. didnt really have a good flight today. i always thought that i will never be the type of Stewardess that breakdown and cry. however today i became one of them =( i thought im always the strong positive tough person at work, i am wronged. i didnt know there's a soft fragile part of me which i can just breakdown. thanks to this career, i learnt to cry in toilet and come out looking im perfectly alright.

i was shocked by how my mental strength can no longer take the type of pressure added on me, i just gotta let go. when i stepped out of my aircraft, straight away my kakis "bluetooth" what i went thru the whole 4hrs flight.

i hated that point of time when i felt so weak n helpless in outstation and im all alone in my room noone to talk to except thru skype. i really need a comforting hug from my bf. it makes me more emotional whenever i felt like crap and cant get wat i needed. i should probably start bringing my stitch around to comfort me if this ever happen again.

i'll be strong again.
i'll pick up the broken pieces and fix it back even if i have to hurt myself. though the scar will be there forever but its the effort,initiative,challenge and patience that will put the pieces together.

Sign Off @ 6:43 AM Kaini

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