maybe, its not just me, alone.
maybe, he's just "shopping" for a girl
maybe, he's drunk
maybe, its all make up stories
maybe, its painful
maybe, im just numb
maybe, he finally got wat he always wanted
maybe, i just wanna get distracted


............

today i wish i was being call up for long flight. i dont wanna stay in singapore. its his 25th bday. i wanna get distracted. pls... i must keep myself bz i must find things to do

i dont know wheres my relationship heading. but i think nigel knows. i hate the fact that im torturing him and he has to endure the treatment. i love him but it not enough. i cant push my love anymore, its my max. but i know i have so much more to give. i cant. i cant do this =( i cant be tt selfish. im not ready aft so many yrs. im worried its a rebound relationship, i tried not to think about it.

sometime i feel stressed when i know i cant afford to make another mistake.

its me, always me. im the cause.

Sign Off @ 12:05 AM Kaini

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